Got introduced to you by a friend
You were cute and all that, baby you set the trend, yes you did oh
The next thing I know we're down at the cinema
We're sitting there you start kissing me
What's that about?

You're moving too fast, I don't understand you
I'm not ready yet, baby, I can't pretend, no I can't
The best I can do is tell you to talk to me
It's possible, eventual, love will find a way
Love will find a way

Don't say you love me, you don't even know me
If you really want me then give me some time
Don't go there baby, not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married, give me, give me some time

Here's how I play, here's where you stand
Here's what to prove to get any further than where it's been
I'll make it clear, not gonna tell you twice
Take it slow, keep pushing me, you're pushing me away
Pushing me away

Don't say you love me, you don't even know me
If you really want me then give me some time
Don't go there baby, not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married, give me, give me, some time

Don't say you love me, you don't even know me, baby

Don't say you love me, you don?t even know me
If you really want me then give me some time

Don't say you love me, you don't even know me
If you really want me then give me some time
Don't go there baby not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married, give me, give me, some time

Baby, don't say you love me, you don't even know me
If you really want me then give me some time
Don't go there baby, not before I'm ready
Don't say your heart's in a hurry
It's not like we're gonna get married, give me, give me some time

Don't say you love me, you don't even know me
If you really want me then give me some time
Don't go there baby not before I'm ready




Recently...I really got no time to update you....so now's the time....On 5th Dec, my family, nenek and I went to Malacca....it was a fun time. So syiok I tell you....Every day we went out...morning to the market...then afternoon shopping time....It was my AL dat time. I really enjoyed it especially I get to play with my nephews, Firman & Aryan....I took some pics but too lazy to upload...heehee!!! I can't wait the next time we going again. Anyways...now I'm staying with my nenek...it's a long story, so to cut a long story short....I'm accompanying her and kinda looking after her at the same time....It was fun with her ...and I so make jokes to make her laugh... but sometimes its her behavoiur that makes me laugh....nenek....nenek




Hehe!!! So long since I went my cousins hse at Malacca. So excited...now's my AL so enjoying every moment of it. Haish! Been so long since I chat with you...due to lots of reasons, the batt went flat and the charger I think overheated. & I'm lazy to use it basically so I was using my diary instead of blogging which was actually more convenient to be truthful as its portable and can be used anywhere. Haha! Okay so about my life. I've been quite a spendthrift lately...umm..not quite, more to very. But I've been spending a lot on story books. About books, they decided to republish the vampire diaries since it's out as a tv series. So, of cos I've to buy it!! Hehehe! And I also bought the Night World series!! All 12 of them!! So you see I actually spent a lot on books. Of cos my mum have not found out. If she did...whoa!! Chaos! Ooh and one thing! I also bought lots of discs basically Korean and English shows. All the stories about happy endings...which is more like in a fairy tale!!! Haish! I'm even making my 2 sis addicted to Korean shows. Especially Boys over Flowers!! Now I;m just waiting for the next fairy tale show...or even my own?




Skg tengah watching cerita Oh Baby...actually dat time dah tengok kat wayang with my adik...tapi rase nak tengok lagi... This story pun sad jugak...the guy tak express his feeling!!! Why so difficult nak express??? Cakap je lah..yang kau suka dat girl..but he did I think in the end. Now waiting for the video to load sebab tu sempat nak blog ni. Kat you-tube sebab tu lah. Loading dah lah getting longer. Anyways, I just met Angel,Cordy & Doyle. Saw Buffy for a bit too..didnt get to talk too long to her though...u know her condition with Angel. Cordy was trying to speak to Angel abt the bills too...u know abt charging the customers.. But of cos Angel, being himself with the soul and all,refused to listen to Cordy. So I wish her luck & I'm giving her my support as seeing that they need cash to eat! Been so long since I went to see them...so I thought of visiting them. Haish! Can't stay long cos I felt tired but wanted to see Baby & Benny..so..hmm. Maybe I'll remember to visit them more often.




Actually that was the title of a story book that I've read...hmm let's see twice? The storyline is good...but I hate the ending. Reality is already very sad...so I want fantasy and also my imagination to be at least better that real life. Starting to read novel malays again...feeling2 now. Wats wrong with this Mawar??? Y she didn'''t accept him??? And Jo!!! Y he didnT defend her in front of the others?? Wat a guy!!! Hm...well wat can I say its really difficult to find guys that are really gentleman and kind and caring...wat more in the real world. There's like a lump in my throat..can't swallow it off..feel like crying after reading the book..especially after the part when she was humiliated in front of everybody...her character sounds familiar...like mine.




Okay, just now it seems very awkward...I didn't expect my parents to pop the question so soon. But then too bad cos I have to answer no to my dad's 1st question. They asked me if I need any help or I can do it myself. of cos I didn't answer since my dad continued and I also showed no signs of answering. Well they just wanted to know...its just so sad I guess I will see how my life goes. Maybe I will just work first for these 2 yrs and see wat happens after that. I was thinking of being a librarian since I love books...and speaking of books, I still have not returned my 2 overdue books. And I'm sure I will get a letter asking for fine soon. Sheesh...imagine if I'm at the library now...I can look thru the books and see if any of them I might like...okay I'm obssessed witih books so wat??? Can't wait for the movies to come out...wonder what will happen to me soon in the ward...haish. Okay...I am clever...I am clever...I am clever...I am clever...I am clever...I am clever...I am clever...




Today, I was like reminiscing with Hawa abt our primary school days. How time really flies....in the past we had fun duing K1 & K2 cos we only draw and play...but now...even in nursery oso must study. I guess life's getting tougher each day. Alamak too much facebook..I forgot to blog....will continue soon..ta-da




Wow! Time really flies...now I'm already a staff nurse but now is only orientation but still!!! But lucky I got ward 47, my PRCP ward!! U can say hat I'm lucky. And Tini was planning of going to the movies on the 16th to watch Friday the 13th with Zu and Mar and Farah. Dunno who else going guess...its only us.

Okay wat else happened today??? Hmm..I actually slept thru most of the lecture cos of yesterday sleeping late to do the ppt. Come to think of it, its interesting when I read thru the details of the Chinese customs and practices. But the info is too much & I've to summarise them into my ppt and they have nt been combined with my other frens...Hah!! I remembered sumthing...a few days ago...I didn't noe which day but I noe its in the morning. I was going to bath when I realised there's no towel.

So while grumbling about my elder sis using my towel, I went to her room.
I have a wild imagination as my sisters noe, so when I looked in my sis room, I saw a white sheet floating in the air. Of cos I just shout and ran to my mother. I cant say anything, instead I jus ried non-stop. My mum was like, saying y I didnt on the light first and asking wat happened. Den my elder sis ran out of the room and passed me the towel. Oh now I remember the day..it was on Thursday.

Later in the afternoon, I was lying on the wooden bench while reading my harry potter & the half-blood prince(the movie coming out soon!!) when I realised the curtains lift up. So from my side view, I thot it was the wind....but then it didnt flap down again & it was still. So I imagined nonsense as usual. I quickly turn to face the curtain & juz shouted....and realized that it was my dad. Whish!




Visionary Philosopher
Your IQ Score is: 126

Your mind's strengths allow you to think ahead of the game — to imagine or anticipate what should come next in just about any situation. Because you're equally skilled in the numerical and verbal universes of the brain, you can draw from multiple sources of information to come up with great ideas. The timelessness of your vision and the balance between your various skills are what make you a Visionary Philosopher.

In addition to your strengths in math and linguistics, you have a knack for matching and anticipating patterns. These skills and your uncanny ability to detect the underlying blueprint of most of life's situations add to your Visionary Philosopher mind. Two philosophers who share the same combination of skills you possess are Plato and Benedict Spinoza. Spinoza had insight into how things worked in the world. He could envision a future based on the patterns he saw in life, and used mathematical logic as a structure within which to present his philosophical arguments. With that base he was able to use logic to formulate his theories. Borrowing from his linguistic strengths he wrote eloquent texts and, therefore, was able to bring his philosophical ideas and structure to the rest of the world. His story exemplifies the talents that are present in the Visionary Philosopher intellectual type.

Whatever you decide to do in life, you've got a powerful mix of skills and insight that can be applied in a wide variety of ways. You can expand your mind to understand a situation. Your strong balance of math and verbal skills will help you explain things to others. For example, if you were on an archaeological dig and discovered an object, you could probably use your deductive powers to figure out not only what the object was but also how it was used. Given your ability to put things together, you are more than capable of inventing a life plan that is in synch with your perspective on how things were, how they are, and how they might be one day.




Yeaterday, I was rushing to finish the Secret Circle book...felt like a sense of deja vu you know like I've read it before...but I remembered that I've read only the initiation part only... And the Silver Cord is about two people who are soulmates or meant to be with each other...such as Cassie and Adam. sheesh...I wish its me...but do'nt fret my time will surely come...*thinking of when my soulmate will come*...Okay now I'm actually bored so just randomly doing quizzes on twilight!!*wink* kahkahkah!!! ...and the result is ...I'm obsessive...tell me something I dunno. Hah! just did the whic power ranger that suits me...or something like that..the answer is green....can you imagine!!!! I wanted yellow!!! I've always liked yellow...

Shamila @ 9:51:00 PM

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Monday, March 23, 2009

Nenekku....

Today, I went to my nenek's house. She, of cos...excited to see me(as if...hehe), told me and Tina lots of her childhood stories. So now we know how bad she was in the past. Hahahaha....imagine stealing durians at 4 in the morning when people was sleeping with late tok mat nor??? Haish...den she kena by her "cikgu ngaji"...must collect water, make chilli boh and stir 5 egg whites to fill a big vase. How is that even possible? Me and Tina was like laughing the whole time...Can't believe it!!! Those were the days!!!

Shamila @ 9:34:00 PM

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

My Bloody Valentino

Hehe the title was supposed to be My bloody valentine but Dee said its valentino..and it sounds nice, very spanish and romantic. Haha..me feeling romantic sounds so weird! Twilight!!! ok back to the future...i mean the movie, its very gore...at first it seems like a ghost story. But actually its some crazy guy running around killing people beneath the mine...nd we watched it in 3-D..so it made it all seems so real....when the sharp thing that the killer was carrying seems like it was going to hit us...hehe *the memories seems to come back all over again*...The killer is oso someone that I least expected...nice.

Shamila @ 5:47:00 PM

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The Happening

Woo!!! Been so busy lately...hehe as if..ok not busy but just lazy to type. I was just checking my facebook and playing the vampire wars..getting weaker each day dunno wats happening tried to make myself stronger but it seems impossible...ben attacked again and again...losing all my blood... ~Unbreak my heart~ when u walked out the door and walked out of my life...say you love me again~~~ Ok so random...listening to my mp3 at the same time...*sigh* I watched lots of movies lately...going to spend all of my money soon...can't wait for 28th!!! ahaha! Ok for ur info, I'm going to ansana...somewhere in JB...maybe it doesn't sound exciting to u guys but who cares???..its been a while since I went out of S'pore...the last time was with Zah and Juwita...and her family. But this time I'm going with my family except my father of cos...*SIGH* I wish he's going...I don't like that feeling that he's not going..and we'll be enjoying.hmm...Oh and btw, Is will going cos(as my mum said, I will be sitting with a stranger the whole day...in the bus... And my sis bf will be there too...dats y..

Shamila @ 5:28:00 PM

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A Shoulder To Cry On...

Life is full of lots of up and downs
But the distance feels further
When its headed for the ground
And theres nothing more painful
Then to let your feelings take
You down

Its so hard to know
The way you feel inside
When theres many thoughts
And feelings that you hide
But you might feel better
If you let me walk with you
By your side

Chorus:

And when you need
A shoulder to cry on
When you need
A friend to rely on
When the whole world is gone
You wont be alone
Ill be there
Ill be your shoulder to cry on
Ill be there
Ill be your friend to rely on
When the whole worlds gone
You wont be alone cause Ill be there

All of the times
When everything is wrong
And your feeling like
Theres no use going on
You cant give it up
Ill help you work it out
And carry on

Side by side
With you till the end
Ill always be the one
A shoulder to cry on continued

To firmly hold your hand
No matter what is said or done
Our love will always continue on

Chorus:

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on
Everyone needs a friend to rely on
When the whole worlds gone, you wont be alone
cause Ill be there
Ill be your shoulder to cry on
Ill be there
Ill be the one to rely one
When the whole worlds gone, you wont be alone
cause Ill be there
And when the whole world is gone
Youll always have my shoulder to cry on

Shamila @ 5:24:00 PM

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Thursday, March 12, 2009

My Working Style

You have a great deal of warmth, but may not show it until you know a person well. You keep your warm side inside, like a fur-lined coat. When you are care, you care deeply, but are more likely to show your feeling by deeds rather than words. You are very faithful to duties and obligations related to things or people you care about.
You take a very personal approach to life, judging everything by your inner ideals and personal values. You stick to your values with passionate conviction, but can be influenced by someone you care deeply about. Although your inner loyalties and ideals govern your lives, you find these hard to talk about. Your deepest feelings are seldom expressed; your inner tenderness is masked by quiet reserve.

In everyday activities you are tolerant, open-mind, flexible, and adaptable. If one of your inner loyalties is threatened, though, you will not give and inch. You usually enjoy the present moment, and do not like to spoil it by rushing to get thing done. You have little wish to impress or dominate. The people you prize the most are those who take the time to understand your values and the goals you are working toward.

You are interested mainly in the realities brought to you by your senses, both inner and outer. You are apt to enjoy fields where taste, discrimination, and a sense of beauty and proportion are important. You have a special love of nature and a sympathy with animals. You often excel in craftsmanship and the work of your hands is usually more eloquent than words.

You are twice as good when working at a job that you believe in, since your feeling adds energy to your efforts. You see the needs of the moment and try to meet them. You want your work to contribute to something that matters to you-- human understanding, happiness, or health. You want to have a purpose beyond your paycheck, no matter how big the check. You are perfectionists whenever you deeply care about something, and are particularly suited for work that requires both devotion and a large measure of adaptability.

The problem for you is that you may feel such a contrast between your inner ideals and your actual accomplishments that you may burden yourself with a sense of inadequacy. This can be true even when you are being as effective as others. You take for granted anything you do well and are the most modest of all the types, tending to underrate and understate yourself.

It is important for you to find practical ways to express your ideals; otherwise you will keep dreaming of the impossible and accomplish very little. If you find no actions to express your ideal, you can become too sensitive and vulnerable, with dwindling confidence in life and in yourself. Actually, you have much to give and need only to find the spot where you are needed.

Shamila @ 6:38:00 PM

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My Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Shamila @ 6:21:00 PM

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

Bintang Hati

Bintang-bintang berkerdipan
Hanya satu mengusik pandang
Hanya satu antara seribu
Pilihanku

Berkerdipan menghiasi
Hanya satu bintang di hati
Hanya dikau dalam seribu yang telah
Menawanku

( korus )
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Bawakanlah cahaya cinta mu
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Kini dirimu aku rindu

Di mataku kau berbeza
Kilauanmu menyentuh rasa
Kaulah bintang bersama cahaya
Tersembunyi

Bintang hati kau penyeri
Ku dambakan kasih sayangmu
Geloraku setiap waktu berlalu
Kau ku tunggu

Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Bawakanlah cahaya cinta mu
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Kini dirimu aku rindu

Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Bawakanlah cahaya cinta mu
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Kini dirimu aku rindu

Bintang-bintang berkerdipan
Yang datang mengusik pandang
Kau satukan antara seribu pilihanku
Hanya kau ku rindu

Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Bawakanlah cahaya cinta mu
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Kini dirimu aku rindu

Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Bawakanlah cahaya cinta mu
Datanglah ke dalam hidupku
Kini dirimu aku rindu

Shamila @ 7:44:00 PM

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Finding Neverland....

I just watched the show on youtube...the actor is Johnny Depp with this funny accent...which I'm trying to follow. I wish I could escape to Neverland. And I cried near the last part when the play was being re-acted in the Davies' house. Tinkerbell represent Mrs Davies who was sick and needed medications. This story is all about imagination and just imagine that I'm in neverland...flying with the faeries using the fairy dust!!! But its not exactly working is it??? Hmm...*sigh* So the ending is Mrs Davies died...and James told the children that she lives in Neverland now. And the happy thing is in her will, she wrote that she wants her mother and James to be the guardian of the kids..woohoo!!the other sad part is seeing Peter crying as he thought she would always be there. Been watching too much of sentimental movies. Oh yes, I reread the Harry Potter book in which Professor Dumbledore died and....I cried. Anyway, anyone would cry too, rite??? Right?!

Shamila @ 6:36:00 PM

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Friday, February 27, 2009

Story of a Girl

This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looked so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

How many days in a year?
She woke up with hope but she only found tears.
And I can be so insincere,
Making her promises never for real!
As long as she stands there waiting,
Wearing the holes in the soles of her shoes!
How many days disappear?
When you look in the mirror so how do you choose?
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

How many lovers would stay?
Just to put of with this shit day after day!
How did we wind up this way?
Watching our mouths for the words that we say.
As long as we stand here waiting,
Wearing the clothes of the souls that we choose!
How do we get there today?
When we're walking to far for the price of our shoes!
Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say!...

THIS IS THE STORY OF A GIRL,
WHO CRIED A RIVER AND DROWNED THE WHOLE WORLD!
AND WHILE SHE LOOKED SO SAD IN PHOTOGRAPHS,
I ABSOLUTELY LOVE HER,
WHEN SHE SMILES...

Your clothes never wear as well the next day,
And your hair never falls in quite the same way-
But you never seem to run out of things to say...
This is the story of a girl,
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her-

This is the story of a girl;
Her pretty face she hid from the world!
And while she looks so sad and lonely there,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...

This is the story of a - girl!
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world!
And while she looks so sad in photographs,
I absolutely love her,
When she smiles...
When she smiles.

Shamila @ 9:40:00 PM

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Monday, February 16, 2009

So Close

You're in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I'm with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy ending
Almost believing this one's not pretend
And now you're beside me and look how far we've come
So far, we are, so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We're so close
To reaching that famous happy ending
Almost believing this one's not pretend
Let's go on, on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

Shamila @ 12:22:00 AM

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